just played 2-3 hr of piano. fingers are hurting. but no one seems to understand that i need more practice in order for my pieces to be played better. they are always saying its bad for their ears, hurting their ears can i stop playing. its gives headache and stuff. its because of them that i think i didn't managed to take my exam last year. i cant afford to fail this time. i don't wish to be playing this peices for 2 years and retaking it in august. its going to torture me man. i also know if sounds nan ting but without proper practice environment how am i suppose to make it work. play while they are not home doesn't work ar. there bound to be someone at certain time. aRGH!

this week is going to be tough. stress. the piano exam tt i fear and the PI paper that i am totally not prepared. revision lesson on monday, i hope that it still gives me time to study since my piano is on wed and pi on thurs. never like to feeling of studying last min but i can't revise when i dunno anything about that module.

previously i send in my photos for some event and got selected, will be going to bintan and have photoshoot. was actually worried to let people know but after thinking through, it time for me to learn that its not the result that count, its the process to feel enjoyment. i may not be the best contestant there but at least its smth new in my life time. seen 2 male contestant, they are ok looking too so maybe the standard not so high but the girls are all quite gd i think. nt too sure, on tues will see some of them on on 30 will see more during the photoshoot. kinda like the idea of going to bintan because i've always wanted to go there! go wink wink at bintan ppl so next time go maybe nt discount. hahas.

ferlin bdae was last sat and she intro to me this guy that is woo-ing her. quite happy for her now. coz today she msg me and say that they were official le. CONGRATS =) hopefully that will be her prince charming to be.

the other time i was thinking of changing my class from full time to part time so that i can earn more money while i am still young. though people tell me that its going to be tough but i think that xin ku a while should be worth the while if i am thinking of long term. what should it be..