i had sleepless night ytd, its not painful but peaceful. i have been wondering for weeks what exactly is that feeling really? after talking to him, i realize that it might be an escape that i am looking for. i don't want to be in this time of my life, so i hope to be back with him back to the times where i enjoyed the best time of my life. his diplomatic way of rejection gave me that idea. but he says that is not what he meant hahas. but i really enjoyed being good friends forever. how many couple could actually be like that. we used to say that sometime in the near future, perhaps we could get back together. this thought did etched in my heart but to him what does it really mean? we've all grown up, the past us maybe very different from now. we need to know the new us. but deep now, does the old us still exist?