what's on for valentine over at his side? i have to say mine its a little different since i ever celebrated vdae. its not like the first time i spend valentine day with no boyfriends but at least gifts and flowers seems like a standard thing to have. come to think of it i have to thanks calvin for his flower some years back when i had dates with all girls and i still have flowers delivered by i dunno who to my place. it was really sweet of him because no one ever did it to me. his the first one. but nevertheless spending vdae for the past 2 years with joshua was awesome too. but things have to move on somehow and i guess it should start now at least i hope i could. was a being a little irritating ytd complaining about how guys have became practical and how girls have to. what on earth is happening, or is it growing up? i do wish what jerome say about having to show off to him my flowers next year on vdae to him even without a boyfriend. must guys prepare a gift after only when they have a date? shouldn't a date be something that was planned and the last thing to do is to ask the girls out? hahas



i spend the vdae afternoon singing away with ferlin ben n jr, it just didn't feels like vdae maybe because to everyone its just really a singing session. until the moment when ferlin got me this bear thingy. thanks. i think my wishes for her to get attached seems to be on track when she msged me about her flowers from her ex. how i envied her. she's been apart from him like 5 years, how many people could actually be like her. after that i went to meet xq and her frens for movies, dinner and drinks after that. i didn't know that it could be fun still. hahas after all its all her friends. was kinda bored when i was at the drinking place- harry because there isnt music, how on earth does it match a pub. totally going to avoid that place. so i was bz msging some friends whom perhaps would be a little different to my vdae if i agree to their date. but somehow, after that i went to meet jerome , hweehou and melvin for supper. we bought mac to marina barrage.



today was maybe an more formal date date kinda of thing with jerome its was something that i least expected maybe. him wearing something nice, picking me up at my doorsteps with gifts and trying to be really humours and gentleman. but i guess i was a little not myself , dressing like crap. i guess the nicest thing he caught me by surprise was when he swipe his card instead of mine. i am suppose to be treating him and he took my card like as if his really going to use it but who knows when he return to me i was like stunned. i mean i didn't expect him to be who say fren can't have a date. hahas. we watched break out at the esplanade and the dancer was awesome how i wish i could be one of those guests that they picked to take a picture or up on the stage. KOREANs! my boyfriends to bebebebebebe. may i ?

oh yeayea. something that i really had to blog. its like the first experience i ever had. i was always wondering how would it be like if the bus driver actually drives the wrong route. and that answer my question just today. i thought that my eyes were playing trick on me that it wasn't 133 that i board when he drive the route of a normal bus 147. the weird thing is , the uncle didn't bother telling the commuters that he was in a wrong and his going to do smth about that. we had to go to him and ask him about it. funny rite. but i wasn't really upset at all coz i think it was funny and i am so excited about it.



Pretentious world

its been a while since i had this feeling about everyone around me is changing and we are all about to face the harsh reality of being fake. must we really be that way as we grow up?

Joshua

i will really kill myself if i were to read his blog one more time in the month of feb. CONTROL man

Gossip girl

arhg.. have been catching gossip girl since ytd on a dvd , it fast and good man.thanks to alfred. my fren from bps? his not really my fren in pri sch but just someone i know cause we are all in different class and i guess he belongs to the "nicer" ppl group while i am like with the naughty people. thanks to facebook he added me and we had a little chat somehow and he has got the gossip dvd so why not just meet him since he is willing to pass it to me. not like chan munwei who requires something good before his willing to lend his harddrive to me. MEAN PORK!

Underworld: The rise of the Lycans

catched it in theatre on monday with jerome. its very nice him to watch the 2nd time with me becoz he slept thru the movies during the time he watch with his frens. at first i tot he was just trying to humour me but during the movies it seems like he really had no idea what is going to happen. anw someone i dunno who told me that its about lycans winning over the vampires . rubbish. cheater. its more about the very begining of how the part 1 even came about.

Outing with classmates on wed

its rare to find me and my classmates hanging out together. esp if the people are those that i don't really speak to in class. there were a total of 8 of us and the only ones that i did hang out with before was adrian and sindy. but they were simply stuck to each other. can't believe that i took a cab from sch to marina sq. they were just saying shall we cab and before i know, we are in the cab itself. had pizza yes man. student meal hahas. i was so super hungry that i had 2 soup which i usually don't drink them. went on with bowling session and its simply not my day for a game of bowl my scores are 68 and 28. the 28 was horrible. the lowest score in my life so far. n its going to stay that way. i was so upset when it appear 0 0 0 8 0 18 0 24 0 28. i will remember this grouping of numbers. after that we went to play pool. thank goodness without luck i still have some skills with me. so i wasn't the loser. played daytona and i was first and second in 2 games. so not too bad. becoz thy were saying that i am " jack of all trades" i dunno if its like that. but it means that i play everything but i m not good at any. that sounded pretty cute and retarded at the same time. everyone left after that while me and the 3 indos guys went to starbucks for a talk. it quite cool that we were talking about real money biz. buying lands, setting up stores, investment. i don't know if i could take their word for it but it definitely something worth hearing since they parents are all so well experienced. it really got me tempted to strive harder!

that ex of mine

supposedly to meet him today but i guess something just went wrong and i realize that i think i thought that he is the one becoz he is rather new. to be frank i know nuts about him now. so i guess i am over it. if he ever read this we are going to be great

REsults!

long awaited results. but its only one modules that they send. i got an A for CB. Yes. when my phone rang and people start telling me their result i was like damn i wanna know mine so i started looking up everywhere in the house and i finally found the spared keys to the letter box. managed to open it with surprised and fear. fear that the other modules will just bring my expectation all the way down. i can't really manage disappointment.

CHERRIOS!







argh! all my photos seems to disappear with the brand new year. i couldn't find the pictures i took with bestman ( the new name i gave for leslie and people )in the past few years. my dad deleted the picts i took in genting and kl with peishan they all , deleted my mayday videos picts. =( its so sad. i didn't even get to load those that he deleted.

when i was crazy trying to find the old pict out, i came across the folder darling. so many pictures of me and him. the memories just keep flowing back. its nice and from the pictures it gives me the feeling of our happiness at that point of time. pictures don't fake, its good as it takes away the bad memories i had for him. what should i do with those pictures? i couldn't bring myself to delete it and its hard for me to rename it. what's wrong man. i feel like uploading all of them and send it to him. or maybe just to my online photos portal. at least when i delete it i will hve a back up but what's the point of doing that? couldn't stop but stop by to read his blog. he seems to move on perfectly with this girl that he wish to spend every moment with and putting a smile to his face. i am happy for him but it seems that his still having prob with his inferiority. if he likes her, why is it so hard for him to just do smth to it. why must he put that dream to an end. i stop to wonder if that girl is christina because if its her, i can still never accept the fact that they are happy together. i hated her.

saw pictures of me when i was younger, perhaps its called the pre phobia of reaching 21, i feel that my smiles aren't that happy anymore and i am not that pretty! the way i dress, the environment changes. i really wish to wash all the pictures out but nowadays its so costly to wash them and to find an album to fit the thousand and thousand of pictures. if only someone could just steal my pictures and put them into album for me within a night's time.

each pictures tells a different story, just by looking at the pictures itself it really reminds me of the things that happen and the words that was said during the photoshoot. whether its ugly , cute or weird looking pictures, it just brings back good memories. =) i think this is why wedding pictures always looks nice because the couple shows their love during the photos. in the past people always tell me from the photo, it can say alot about the people, i had to admit it now.

ytd bestman came over to my place to bai nian and its fun to just really hang out with them. the past i blog and complain about the distance feeling its no longer presence after the not so freq meetings that we had. i know they all cared for me still . i was kinda worried when everyone in my family ask if they are not coming because they took quite long to come up. i was a little worried like will they bluff me for a sec. but its silly to think that way man. hahas. when they came i really smiled =) i think they will be my only grp of frens that will bond with my family. i am glad that effort made was there. we gambled alot, thanks yiyang munwei and caifa for giving me coins after they win. hahas. i felt like a little kid when they were playing coz yy was just like just take the coins and play nevermind de , yet during the game people like dunno bout my presence. i did this to little kids in my family too. hahas. but its good so i minimize my loses. hehe. i love the last part of the visiting every year - phototaking session.

went out with jerome just now after my piano lesson. don't know if my mood plays a part but this time round there's isnt the weirdness being out with him along once again. there's this celebration at chinatown for the 15th day of cny, fireworks display is the reason why i headed down. the environment today was more rara as compared to the lights opening ceremony if only they had it arranged like today. the music was great feels like chinese new year but what's the point of doing it when it seems like its going to end now. hahas. there was many mc and the one standing in front of me was great. everyone shouted huat very loudly and thereafter was the crackers and fireworks display. AWESOME!



been crazy in love with this show recently. i want to get the dvd man, its easier to watch than on streaming. its so slow. i couldn't find a faster streaming webbie. the cast in the shows are cute and hot but i guess it also help to get my mind off a little while from the crazy reality life that i am leading. xoxo