this new year is pretty much different. not much of gambling mood and there's no dragon dance around most estates. - bad bad recession.. hopefully it will be over real soon..so many things has happen within the last year, things are over and i am getting happier. just wish that my studies willbe good and everyone around me will be happy. =)

gong xi gong xi, wan shi ru yi. this two is the most common phrase that i know how to say le hahas. i don't think i can expect to wish people kuai gao zhang da. hahas. i was suppose to stay up during the cny eve but in the end i slept at 3 plus. cny day 1 is always the best day because u get your hong bao collection then. the weather isn't like normal chu 1 its more brezzy and less sunny so its good! because when u go to the temple is not that uncomfortable.. as usual after going to places at night my parents will bring us to movie. we watched love matters. this show totally sux. its so boring.

this year new year is bit weird for me already, all my cousin are older and they are mainly boys yet they are so concern about having a girlfriend. maybe its the face matters. but they are so enthu when my mum was like saying she know how to read palm, the qn that pop out is "when will i married". omg. they are guys ehs. hahas. one of my cousin brought his gf and this is the the first gf being approve by my ah ma. she's troublesome. my elder is married so to them its weird coz she's not the eldest yet sh'e married. everyone keep pressurzing the big cousin to find one. my qn is must he fake and bring 1 girl along to appease those people. funny eh keep asking that. esp my aunts, they are so concerned about their son's marriage yet they are saying this girl not good that not good. as if their child super star la. and when it comes to me, they always confuse me n lixin and they will say eh sry sry coz the height diff. how many years have i been shorter le!? yet they still confuse and use the same reason of ht diff. it doesn't hurt me with that phrase anymore. coz now i grow up i will say oh no la i am the elder one, so many years le your still dunno i shorter meh?

chu 3 clubbing! hahs. its the first time i go club during new year.went with ferlin gary sokpeng and hongyi our new friend came along. we went doubeo to get the freeflow girls drink first then head back to zouk for the dancing. saw tuna while we were at zouk and there's alot of gossip bout ferlin's life. kienleong was there as well and that guy really changed. he smoked?! gosh.. i figured out all my ex smoke in a way or another by now.hahas. brandon, yeowann, seonghoon, ken's fren,benson's fren were all down at zouk met alot of people and the feelign is nice to say hi to each other n gong xi gong xi. hahas.

chu4 my poly mates came over to had steamboat at my place. all 7 of us except weixiang. its fun as the girls went to buy the ingredients. the feeling of alot of girlfriends in the kitchen is comfortable. we played poker and black jack, the biggest winner is genius queck! the saddest thing is that we didn't take pictures. arhg!



stupid number pattern. p3 only also so difficult. it quite a malu event for me this afternoon while trying to coach my kid about it. i think they think that the students nowadays are genius hahas. i had to secretly msg to jerome n kl to ask them for answer. it did took them a while but a least there'a an answer. not like me , stare at the question so long yet i didn't manage to solve. hahas.







weather has been rather breezy and cold recently. its nice to wrapped myself up with blanket. that feel of warmth is something that i look forward to every night.

happy birthday to amy, rena and jinglin. the jan babies that i knew of =)
yesterday was a weekday supposedly a curfew before 12. but i reached home like at 1am. was out with leslie and gang celebrating rena's birthday. went to sakae sushi buffet. its the first time i eat sakae so i thought that i should open myself up to more choices. thou i ate a lot of choices, but none is my favourite. the mochi dessert is yummy. my house has got it too. but not in lychee and peach , which tasted nice delicious too. after that we went to chill at the cathay starbucks and marriage was one of the topic. hahas targeting at rena and caifa. i sincerly hope that the one that they are with now is the one that they are going to married =) after that we went to the bench outside smu. we formed 2 grps - fan jian and advisor. whahas rubbish. bascially its just talking about relationship. me jere n munwei has been classified together. they gave many different advise and i think some of it is true. i always lead people on without me knowing it. i would just verbally tell the person and if he is still a willing party, i won't go create that distance. but by not doing so, it may still lead the person on because my words and action don't synchronize.so i think this is the reason the way i am treating jerome now.but come to think of it. i think as long as we are happy shouldn't think so much. it seems impossible that platonic relationship can purely exist? i don't want a relationship soon maybe even for the next few mths. what i need is someone who can be there when i am bored and talk to. entertain me play with me. a playmate. but it would alway lead them to fall for me. it will den lead to stress causes as everything reach a different phase people expect something more.. i haven't fully got over my exs. it is making me fear to make new guy friends. now i would contact back frens that i used to know and hang out with. i think this is easier because i won't fear to lead them on. hahas. but i believe sooner or later i will be back to myself. i m just more friendly to guys and i like hanging out with them its my character i think.

school has been hard for me to concentrated and get things started. i think its because of the holidays thingy. like next week i will be having another 2 weeks of holiday for chinese new year.

last sunday i met ferlin to go and shop. and we bought a book on horoscope. i think the most of the contents are quite true. but i am not obbessed with the ideas thou. what do u guys think if girls are to woo the guy? would anything turns out well?






Eyucks!

read the news on the chinatown incident. gosh man. ytd there was this boy that got killed today was some business man got this fingers injured. why are people so violent nowadays? and worst still, in my teritory? hope that its not those china people creating trouble. _ not being racist_

i am all geared up for school now! projects has got me starting. thou this presentation doesn't call for any markings but it makes me feel that its hard to get along with my grp members. they are the 2 couple i mentioned. the malaysia girl dump me. ever since the sem start she changed group. i can totally understand y . cause it really feels rather weird that 2 couple that are not couple are quite touchy with each other in front of u. it delays the project speed too. maybe i am not so used to this sch environment, my purpose there is to like get things done chop chop go home do my own stuff. its more like learning and not doing it. its like going for seminars and not class. but my group consist of the smarter ones. its good cause the ideas are not too bad but bad because 4 people are aggressive sort. including myself. wonder how will it works out.. to be continued.. hahas.

tmr is alumni night again. drag gary to go along with me because i thought that ferlin will be companying her friend and i think that sokpeng is going to fly me areoplane hahas but in the end. it seems like gary is going to be alone =) lols. its gona held at fort canning. hopefully tmr night will be breezy. nice nice weather ..

what is it like if girl is going to woo the guy ? check out scv channel 55 hahahas. nice show!



i got mayday signature! thanks to my brother in law




the last post was too long. this is specially for peishan jerome stanley my sister.

we've hang out quite a bit after the trip and the gathering was fun. all the movie arcade, chinese new year fireworks light up at chinatown and the may day concert! loves love. esp peishan. hopefully we don't end that way. it should carry on.



ahas hahas its a bit late now to wish everyone a happy new year but every since the trip back from kl everyday has been a fun and hetic day for me. its fulfling. nevertheless alot money has been contributed back to the economy.

new year eve was spend with leslie caifa amy munwei. jere and his gf supposedly to join us but well i guess they need their honeymoon time together hahas. we went marina bay for the countdown. spend 18 dollar on it. i guess maybe its well spend on having the most spectacular view on the fireworks but not the performance. i had to admit it was boring. perhaps because its mainly english songs? i guess it would be higher if its on channel8. hahas. i tried to entertain myself to make myself high so that the rest won't be so bored. leslie said like i got the wrong grp of friends because i was high and their not. but i don't think i had the wrong grp of people. thou they may not be as enthu as some others, but its being with them that makes me feel good. 2008 have been bad and spending the last day of it and the first day of 2009 makes me feel good because i feel like a family when i am with them. maybe i didn't show it. i was a little crazy and they keep asking me to shut up and don't keep moving around but hahas i like it. after that we took train to serangoon and had prata. choonleong joined us for it. he bought us food from hongkong .yumyunm. but i didn't have a chance to taste it!!! it was at caifa's house and my slipper the one i bought for kelvin, its with munwei. so for me to meet kelvin i need to meet munwei first. ok back to the new year eve, at caifa house he taught me this game which i dunno what is called, but its fun. it taught me how to take risk. i am not a risk taker myself so by playing this kind of game, i think i will cultivate that kind of mentality. but it ended a bit bad when everyone say that i was mean to show jerome attitude because he was late to pick me up. i know i was mean to show attitude, but perhaps its because i was afriad that my parents will scold me. if someone could say like hey chill don't worry. but they say i was spoilt. but i understand that they didn't know how me and jerome communicate so it looks mean for them. but i am glad that jerome was understanding and know my temper well enough. after i board the car, i also apologized for the nasty voice i sounded over the phone. hahas. i think its more of a give and take thingy. maybe me being luckier that i can get to vent my anger first. after all, who is he to fetch me? people fetch me i think i should appreciate le. i do. its just with my frens, i show the not happy face. but they should be nicer! not everyone bombard me. but yea la they didn't shout at me that was great le.

i dislike this xmas because there isn't gift exchange from any of my main grp. like benson n leslie grp. i thought its like don't nida to say and the process it there. but i think maybe because they are guys, its not cultivated within them. its only when its spoken and if its for their gf. or perhaps its the recession. hahas. its a bit upsetting but grow out of it. i think i will xi guan.

read joshua blog knowing that he didn't had a very nice new year on his 3rd day. wonder what happen but none can give me an answer. after that i have been pondering whats wrong but even walter doesn't know.

apple told me that he spend his new year countdown at this girl place, and ferlin told me he saw joshua, caifa told me he saw him too during my new year countdown. everyone just keep telling me where they saw him . it makes me wonder, how's his leg. but everyone say sry i didn't notice how he walk. aya. hahas.

after all that happen i know joshua still has a place. i've spoken it to jerome about it. thx u ! for being so understanding. i don't know how we will become in future. but i hope that u will still be my friend for me. not like those people who change and totally be stranger. =)

i met kienleong after school today. it was rather impromptu outing. its for like 1.5 hr? hahas. i didn't know why but i guess its all because we both were bored. i saw kien sin! shuai. shuai. hahas. an lian him!. he still looks the same. so decent looking hahas. i was glad that the meeting with kienleong didn't turn out strange. like as if there's no conversation. even though it was like harsh suaning to each other but it make the whole thing feel more natural. he cheat me of my bintan trip. kuku head! but its oke..

after that i met ferlin, sokpeng, joan. we had out 38 session and decided to go bintan in april too. hopefully i will really go ! i want to go! they are still as loveable. all of us had our own prob and we spend time at the popeye*flyer* talking and conselling each other. the benefit of having girlfriend is this man. if only my guy friends will be willing to hear my stuff. maybe its me. never hear their prob. but i don't know how to approach them. everyone's so busy with their sch,wrk. people get lazy about calling people out. what happen. is this what happen at 20s? sms communication seems to be the way. but i don't like that. always got misinterpretation. i prefer phone conversation. more happy =)

stupid leslie! msg him talk to him about my prob no reply. kns!