why is it so hard to just believe or convince someone that i care sincerely? must it be because i am guilty or because i pity them? ridiculous. i know how you feel for me. when i am nice to u, u say i lead u on and u don't want to be playing games with me. when i am less nicer to u, u say i didn't show enough concern and will a lil more kill me? NO it won't. it just that i dunno what are the boundaries that i should be having that will make u comfortable. treat u like a friend, you say you are not interested. i know u don't want just be my friend. u want to get back together. but the things that u say and do hurts me more. is this how u want to woo someone back ? i am sorry that my house piano hurt u but none of my family members including me pity u because of it. we cared. i dunno why u can ever think otherwise. kinda disappointing. if u don't want me to visit u or to company you to your appt, i shan't force u like how i did when we were together. obviously, after break up i can't possibly still be like last time being so thick skin and ask u to let me take care of u. but nevertheless, i will still be there to volunteer. but if u reject me, can you teach me what am i really suppose to do ?

everyone wants you well by the wedding.i've just been too busy with my exams and the wedding preparation. its just so short time. i tried my best to show u all my concern within my limit already. i know its not enough if you were to compare it with the past. i can do more. but what u say ytd i dunno what am i suppose to do now.

going clubbing tonight.sokpeng and joan pang seh! idioit them. hpmhpmhpm. ! but i sort of knew it that when i wake up there will be a few pang seh msg. this is the bad thing about dating girls out. hahaas. but nvm la. i understand! =))