i prayed that i can call out to stop everything as it is. i got my courage and told my mum to drive to his place without knowing where is it. i lie to him that i was in cab so that he wouldn't be stubborn and not tell me where the address is. i was glad that his out , that would mean that his able to walk. knowing that makes me feel better. not less guilty but happy for him. i wanna call out a hold to all this, why could a couple break up and end up this way. this is not a way that i would want it to be. never experience it before. no idea how to handle.

went up and face his dad, feeling a lil wei qu cause my mum was with me. she knows everything and i felt bad that she has to handle that situation too. she was like why he never answer ure phone, why why why was irritating that i had to tell her. she was rather upst with what people is saying about me. shouldn't have blurt it out of my mouth. her regards to u ..

but if things are going to get worst. i want it to stop right now. whatever that is happening, its just hurting both of us even more. this is ridiculous. do we have to resort to this to just make each other forget and move on. i believe there is a better way to help us move on. a happier ending. learn how to be friends..

i bought u the slippers, i don't know what way u will think of it. but its for xmas. that's all. i don't know if we will still be talking but don't let whatever it is affects the people around us.i don't know if it was stupid to do so, but i never think it was and i don't need to be reciprocrated. so don't think i am bullying u or making u feel guilty. hopefully not ure frens thought. i don't want anything about us to have them involved..