i am not here to change things or to complain ! =X

i have many grps of friends leslie and ppl, peishan and ppl, benson and ppl, polymates clique, sec girls, pri friends. pls know that at any times in my life, as long as your belong to this grp of people, pls know that i am there and no matter when u need me i am there. things may change after years, conversation maybe different and the time to meet maybe lesser too. but i am still me, still who i am. what i really need at times is the basic, respect. i don't like to feel that i am neglected. i have to admit sometimes i will be jealous of news friends that came into your lives, but i am not kicking up any fuss or trying to be demanding. i just hope that you guys can notice that i am growing up, i have my views on things and some --ve attitude that i had could be changed as times passes by.

had a lil prob with leslie and munwei ytd, i dunno where to start to to say. but i know what leslie meant when he said that i got too serious with their conversation . i don't wanna this to end up bad, but the sms that u last sent did hurt me in a way.

its just sad that the guy whom knows me well, bother to spend times listening to me is now finding it hard to communicate to me and feels that i am throwing unneccessary thantrum. esp the guys that i had hang out with for many years, perhaps i am really dumb to know when your are joking but it all matters to be because i take your seriously.

i love you people. i don't wanna feel that tension between me and u people. ure may not feel it and think that other girls are not acting this way but sometimes, all i needed is to just whin and to cfm that i am still impt even though i know that u people cared for me. i really know. i know its not possible to change how things are because its normal. since i am the one changing maybe i should be adapting to it. i promise to start appreciating all my friends now, i maybe be bad in the past hahas.

was at benson house playing mj today with weiliang,eileen and eric. i lost $6.50 =( hahas. but was fun because it had been a while since i played mahjong. wining and losing doens't really matter what matters is being together =) eric has been a bit weird or maybe his back to his normal self. but i just don't feel that his the same. maybe its just me. went out to meet jessie today with darren, i've talk to her about leslie and people things. i am glad that she hasn't changed. she would still spend time listening and trying to understand me for who i am now and not judge me by the past me and give good advices. i think this is what friends meant to me =) i love u girl! hahas. took great picts today.

i love u.