yes! its been long since i blog i was busy doing wedding preparation.. lets start from last monday.. 17 nov.. my first paper. prepared myself i guess but the paper was a little tough but i know i will be able to pass it.. after that joshua came over to my place to help me out with moving the furniture and an accident happen. the piano fell on his foot. acc to him it was the wire that trip the piano but i think the piano trip and hit his foot becoz he wanted to help me ba.. but of coz i got some injuries on myself too.but it was rather minor compared to his. was msging eric and he was very cool about it coz he said he had seen too much in the police force. hahas. maybe i should start seeing things more so that i will be cool and i know how to be stable a bit. happily enjoyed my time waiting for his turn to the doc.. visited him the next day with my parents because they suggested it. but i was kinda of tired because i had done the reshuffling of my room till like 4am on monday nite.. and tue morning it was still moving and shifting.. for people who dunoo.. yes.. my sister is getting married! 21dec =) congrats!

i forgot what i did on wed n thurs but yea to fri i went to meet joan pong wx and sokpeng to watch chiwahwa! yesyesyes i love that show. super cute. i love dogs but i don't dare to be near them. i scare that they will bite me. so i wish that all dogs will freeze upon seeing me. the idea of dogs is detering me from wanting to go for the MI gathering on 13dec. coz luciuos has got 2 dogs and both are quite hyper=(

that's the only day for the entire week i was out.. but of coz on sat there was alicia and swee leng bdae party.. alicia's bdae was cooll.. fabulous.. it was different from normal chalet and stuff. we were under dressed coz she said it was semi-formal but most of her friends came in dress. rather all. hahas.. there was many dance going on. latin.salsa.rumba. it just totally make me feel like learning one of those.but to reach that standard i guess years of hardwork is required. most of the friends are from the same dance club as her hence they are able to have dance p.k. was cooll..

on sunday spend studying . hai.. i miss my friendS!

finally i thought this 24 nov will be my paper yet i got the dates mixed up . its 25 nov-.-! one more day of suffering i thought. hahas but i finally finished it today. but nevertheless on more paper on the coming monday. which is horrible because fri- sun my sister has her batam side wedding. haiz. .kns! so many things.. her wedding sacrfice my paper..



i made my confession to u while your asleep. a fact that i have been keeping to myself. its been hurting me for long without u taking note how impt that is to me. i know you care for me just that you are not good at expressing yourself. i think you must be hurt now because the prob that is keeping us apart is something that you can't control. you're used to me telling you what i want but i really don't know how to solve this. this is why i have been faking that this prob is alright and i can forget it. to me its just a form of betrayal. nevertheless, i felt better after telling him. when people are hurt, they tend to talk rubbish and say things that will hurt each other more. why?

been raining the whole day, sort of balance my mood a little. work at central the entire day is good as it keeps my mind away from things. thanks my fren, ng jie long! for chasing the wolves away =)

a nursery rhythm that i got the lyrics all wrong. - ba ba black sheep.

my version :
ba ba black sheep have u any wolves?
yes sir yes sir, 3 black wolves,
1 for my master , 1 for my slave and 1 for the lil gal who cries in the day

exact version:
ba ba black sheep, have u any WOOL
yes sir yes sir, 3 BAG FULL
1 for my master, 1 for my dame, and 1 for the lil BOY who LIVES DOWN THE LANE!

i want it to be WOLVES! sounds nicer.. this discovery made me laugh the entire night b4 bed. thank you for laughing at me but it helps in my sleep thou.. hahahs



argh! so must for trying to just show concern. what are u thinking ass! i just wanna be there, i don't mind u treating me bad but must u talk like an idiot? " don't want to be in possession of anything that remind me of u " i know u don't want to be upset. neither do i want to be ma. stupid wu liao.. er xin ! y y y must i behave this way.

xiaoqi keeps me thinking.

being with the one u love is more impt? or being with the one that can make u happy? does it matters if the one that can make u happy isn't the one u love?

the one u love, the one who love u , the one whom u love n he loves u. all this is smth that we have been thinking when we were younger. in the past we would all say find the one who loves u ! den more xing fu. but in reality.. most girl will chose the one they loves most.

miracles will happen if you never give up.set your goal and go all the way for it!

my goal is to be happy! but is it possible to ignore other ppl feeling

i want to be with u but i need to convince myself to be able to make myself happy. i need to regain the strength within myself to stay through. i can't keep expecting things from u coz i will be a form of trouble to u for sure. i m troublesome. i know it.




i wanna have mocha ice blended, long john silvers', movie dates, traveling trips!

took a very deep breathe. wonder how should i go about typing it out. the url was out of my mind for a few weeks. it took me a while to think what is the url. i found 3 articles, just be seeing the title makes me feel like crying. everything about him seems to trigger my emotion.

memories that came to me the day that i see you, no matter how i hated jan 20, i remembered it. i think i am the meanest girl on earth. i shouldn't have lead u on in the way u think i did, when i am not ready to just focus my full attention to u. i don't deny that i've been trying to move on. all i just want is to be happy and smile everyday. i am sorry that it is built on your unhappiness. i don't know what else do i have to say to make u feel better. i'm here for u no matter who i am with. i don't know if our paths will ever cross, but i want to know a new you. the old u evoke different feelings in me. misunderstanding in your blog, no trust in my actions, its all my bad. i shouldn't be contradicting and i should be clear to u . about the past, there isn't much to say, but i am glad u finally know what i really wanted to hear. thanks.

i miss ya
i am not hopeless.
STUDY !!!! what the hell am i thinking man..



look at the pict w xiaoqi holding a flower. whahas!

argh * woke up today was wondering why are my classmates asking me about CB exam? continued to study for odtw till 5 plus only to realize that i really studied the wrong exam ? =( but it seems hard to change to cb right now. hahas so maybe tmr i shall start on cb question.!

i want a blender to make milkshakes! i make the best milkshake. hahas. stupid jerome u will regret it. hpm! boring programs at 7pm. channel 8 is showing ten brotherS!? wth is tt stupid show. don't they have other prog. channel 5 sux too- the making of quantum of solace.

munwei uploaded all the picts on facebook, looking at it now. i could sense the happiness in all of us that day. its like no exam stress, no r/s prob just the few of us. happily ever after . =)













happy bdae to xiaoqi n munwei..pict are on their way!

last fri i went out with siewfong!

celebrated xiaoqi bdae with deanne at holland village on wed? we ate at the nydc and headed to coffee club for cakes session. its acutally very stupid to have all girls parties esp with all the louds ones. the entire place seems to be filled with only our voices and we were retarded with the camera?! took many different poses for millions time man.

on thurs, met with leslie ,jere, and munwei to go get this adidas jacket. i wanted buy one for myself too man. siewfong! hahas xmas present pls lols :X i hope munwei loves his jacket. we walked up and down city hall area just to look for it. went kbox to sing and guess wad.. on fri, it the official celebration at khatib bottleneck village. the food was nice and we went to partyworld after dinner. i bet munwei spend alot on his bdae givings treats and stuff.hmm maybe chalet would have been cheaper. hahas. everyone came except caifa but his presence could be felt still as everyone seems to have a little influence from him--- being crazy. hahas. esp leslie! i got tricked by them like usual . i think i m always dumb when i am with them. kor still think that its interesting.wth. but at least now lakeside is not near khatib and ktahib is not near jurong. =/=

i love them man. took a lot of candid shot.. guess wad i think that all of us are ageing. the songs we sing are like super oldies. ( ai wo bei zuo, xing bu liao qing, ben xiao hai) wth. hahas. but it is fun to grow up along with them. there were many crap conversation like leslie's way of pronouncing stadium as stadLIUM. planes that is not aeroplane, totally nonsense. but happy =)

sat is a nice day to slack at home, reading notes , studying. after that went for photoshoot with my family and i felt weird. wearing a tube is horrible, having to put make up makes it worst. haven't got a look at the protrait yet but hopefully it will turns out well enough. went to watch 007 in the night but i think the show is quite bad. i don't understand it at all . hahas. perhaps i am to tired to think.

sun- bad day. i m sry.

now i am trying to upload 119 pictures to everyone!











i am not here to change things or to complain ! =X

i have many grps of friends leslie and ppl, peishan and ppl, benson and ppl, polymates clique, sec girls, pri friends. pls know that at any times in my life, as long as your belong to this grp of people, pls know that i am there and no matter when u need me i am there. things may change after years, conversation maybe different and the time to meet maybe lesser too. but i am still me, still who i am. what i really need at times is the basic, respect. i don't like to feel that i am neglected. i have to admit sometimes i will be jealous of news friends that came into your lives, but i am not kicking up any fuss or trying to be demanding. i just hope that you guys can notice that i am growing up, i have my views on things and some --ve attitude that i had could be changed as times passes by.

had a lil prob with leslie and munwei ytd, i dunno where to start to to say. but i know what leslie meant when he said that i got too serious with their conversation . i don't wanna this to end up bad, but the sms that u last sent did hurt me in a way.

its just sad that the guy whom knows me well, bother to spend times listening to me is now finding it hard to communicate to me and feels that i am throwing unneccessary thantrum. esp the guys that i had hang out with for many years, perhaps i am really dumb to know when your are joking but it all matters to be because i take your seriously.

i love you people. i don't wanna feel that tension between me and u people. ure may not feel it and think that other girls are not acting this way but sometimes, all i needed is to just whin and to cfm that i am still impt even though i know that u people cared for me. i really know. i know its not possible to change how things are because its normal. since i am the one changing maybe i should be adapting to it. i promise to start appreciating all my friends now, i maybe be bad in the past hahas.

was at benson house playing mj today with weiliang,eileen and eric. i lost $6.50 =( hahas. but was fun because it had been a while since i played mahjong. wining and losing doens't really matter what matters is being together =) eric has been a bit weird or maybe his back to his normal self. but i just don't feel that his the same. maybe its just me. went out to meet jessie today with darren, i've talk to her about leslie and people things. i am glad that she hasn't changed. she would still spend time listening and trying to understand me for who i am now and not judge me by the past me and give good advices. i think this is what friends meant to me =) i love u girl! hahas. took great picts today.

i love u.