finally, someone had chalet again and i managed to get permission to stay out from home. which means i can get to reach home after day-break. so it was exciting for me and i wanted to meet as many people as i can! it was joan's celebrating her 21st bdae. from her looks, i figured out that she should have an enjoyable bdae party. was happy for her to receieve so many present and that she likes the bikini that i bought her. was quite tiring sat for me as i had woke up ard 8am to swim and went cycling with ferlin ( she's cool, she wore a skirt to cycle salute! ) and help out at the bbq thing and spend on whole morning till about 6 i reached home. ( thx eric for waiting and waking ! and ensurely my friends were safe home too! )

swimming was great, got some tanned color on me and cycling was fun becoz it was very windy. been long since i met the all the polymates at the same time. finally passed weixiang his bdae present and glad he likes it too. kailin was present with her bf ! and i realize that she got happier. she was glowing with happiness.

went to meet caifa,jeremy,chunleong,amy and munwei since they were also attending seng's bdae.at that point of that i was suppose to meet them, i was thrilled and excited coz i missed them. but after meeting them, i felt abit weird. things weren't the same or rather maybe i had changed. i felt left out and its hard for me to mingle in. i don't know when they are lying to me as usual but they said they were gg taiwan and if i wanted to go they can add a tix. it makes me feel shitty. but ya smiled. when we were having mini conversation, it makes me realize that everything they knew about me was when i was "little" , i doubt they knew the present me. it was quite sad to hear things like they are second and i cast them aside, other's more impt etc.. i mean they had and will always be the priority its just that i think i have grown up or maybe because i don't know how to ask them out like old times. even for bdae, i also will feel that its pointless to keep my big day for them. its no longer the crazy me where will call them and tell them about myself. i m a girl, sometimes i need people to ask me about it as well. is that a gd or bad thing acutally?

we did talked about my bdae celebration date as well.. i am sry to siewfong! becoz they had wanted to make it on wed and i actually had that thought of cancelling the outing with my girls. but yea.. luckily we settled on tue. so means.. i can still celebrate with siewfong!! =) hahas. so countdown for me yea? hahas.. coz usually my mum will get the cake at home. maybe this time round it would be my girls' sharing that cake with me. if my mum do remember..

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on fri, i went vivo to celebrate my bdae and liying's bdae with the MI people. it was nice seeing all of them. alicia,shaowei,jeslin,lucius,peishan,liying,jerome and lucius' gf. thx my darling peishan to organize them and i liked my present from all of them! =) played some stupid game called the "thumb" game. loser were suppose to kiss someone , somehow. it started with me kissing liying. hahas phew.. peishan was the only person spared in the entire game. not fair! becoz sw, me , ly, jerome,alicia got it somehow. Jerome came to find me at about 3am when i was at the chalet, he told me smth and it weird becoz we've been in our current status throughout 3-4 years. maybe things will work out somehow, someday. i am bit confused.

joshua msg me to let me know that he might not make it for my bdae. talked to sweeleng and sokpeng about it during the chalet. so many things that we chatted. from e to jerome to joshua. they said that somewhere in my heart i will have joshua. y m i related to all the J's.

got dickson msg asking me out to celebrate the oct babies bdae. deeply appreciated that! was nice of him. at least makes me feel good. hahas

stupid dad! just told me to on the radio and they are talking about how to make short people looks taller! i guess i had better study nw!