why do people blog only when they are upset. people usually forget to blog about happy things. including me.my blog seems to revolved around my relationship. i want to blog about happy things. i want to pass each night and day without having any tears.

i've been on the verge of breaking up with him. i believe even him also thought about this idea before. i never wanted a break up. all i hope was for him to think over. but i guess i didn't acheieve that. it just made both of us much more unhappy. he thought that i wanted a break up and to me.. his little changed action make me feel that he would like to break up with me. i really don't know man. things have changed so badly.

am i too stubborn. he asked me to get used to it. to lesser msges and attention from me. i told him i can't. i think i can't handle it. i doubt i can get used to everything being lesser. esp when it has already been so little already. i am concern since if now the contact is already so little if i still have to compromise and get use to even more little than little. won't it eventually end up a break up? when's there's no communication how is there suppose to be a good relation. am i wrong to have rejected his idea. or am i too selfish?

i think i am the cause of the failure relationship. i never knew that he doesn't like watching fireworks even with me. i thought that even if fireworks maybe boring. at the least u r watching with the one u loved. it should be very romantic. he used to squeeze through the crowd with me. but now he say that its boring and its the same all the time. i thanks him for companying me. but if i am seeing him so bored, do u think i would have the heart to ask him out for fireworks again? i really would like to watch with him but i daren't ask him out again for fireworks. i don't want to be "childish"..

i think i thhink too much. i don't even know if i should ask him out this sat too based on what we are facing. siewfong told me that i am not selfish. the things i want is the basic from a bf. its really kinda of " fan jian " if a girl keeps taking iniative ma