i thought that a good way to enjoy myself and make myself happier is to go out with my friends. i wonder if that is right or wrong. went out with kelvin and joshua(jiang zhe ming) whahhas! and ferlin at first to watch love guru. its really funny. i haven't seen myself laughing so much whil ein the movies. after that went to pepper lunch at lido. yumyum.. maybe i was hungry i managed to finish all. and there was a new friend that came along. his name is ke rui. his plump but he is super cute. wanted to hang out with them a while more but i got to rush and meet benson they all. kelvin send me to pasir ris and we had a long chat over the train journey. it made me feel like crying but i managed to stop myself from doing that.

met benson,weiliang,eric,jianrong and tianming. was suppose to go to fisherman to drink! to all! fisherman is open. so stop telling me its not hahs. coz i got photos to say it. met new friends as well.. sally,jeremy,edwiin and another couple. fisherman has a very nice view and i cried in front of all of them. shrugs* didn't expect that. everyone seems shocked but i was glad to know that at least there are people that cares for me =) and eric i am sorry hahas, i didn't know it was suppose to be your pre bdae celebration lols.! we ordered some drinks and took a few pict. weiliang got new gf le! really hope that he can be happy and happier! jr suggested that we go sing and i was ok with it. i mean i'd rather be out than at home.i won't be able to sleep every night and i also will just end up crying isn't it better to have company of my friends?i wanna hug of u guys ytd man.

tianming asked me to ride his bike. i was very reluctant but well.. the rest all have to squeeze into the other 2 car so i went along. i was very scarem because the journey is going to be long and he changed his bike to a sports bike. my 2nd time. =S but it well fine.. i am still alive ! sang k , cried, chat with leslie and jerome on the phone. thanks guys! i hope i can be better. until about 5 plus reach home at 545 am. thought that i will be able to sleep straight away but i couldn't. i know i am abit fan jian. in the end i still msged him. hai.. i know he cares, but he only know how to blame that i think too much, but he nevver bother how i feel. he ask me can i not think too much and what i want. he has been repeating all this. but all this happen because he has no actions to it. he only know how to say he still love me. it feels like he wanna just settle the prob quickly. we had never met since the prob started. how to settle it. leslie suggestesd that if i love him, its either i just forget it and get back together with him or i should just bear with it. i want to . but can i?? can i really don't bother if he pamper me o not?

won't that ill-treat myself. i want to find back myself! where's the liting i once knew. why do i keep crying. i don't think i had cried in front of so many people b4 for any relationship prob. his out today. i am feeling very uneasy. he had never properly say that he never regret being with me and that he don't like her anymore. i hate all the two timers, physically or mentally or even think for a wee bit seconds.

to peishan! we talked for a few hours today. i know u r suffering because of the jerk. but since ure feeling better le. don't think back k !

silly people thinking:
"i would rather u break out with my because i won't hate u for it. and i know i won't be so upset than i were to break with u because i know u will blame me. "