a child at heart
a confused and complicated child hoping to start all over where she fell.the past seems to be much more embracing than the complicated reality.
goodnight
SEAH LI TING
MDIS, Marketing degree from bradford, UK
Temasek Poly , Retail mgt diploma
First Toa Payoh Sec
Upper serangoon Sec
Bendemeer Pri
Jagoh Pri
Single without any thoughts of getting hitched.
The stuff i want!
a driving licenselicense
a trip to some islandisland
explore the whole of singapore hiddenplaces
camera
covered shoes
bag for office
clutch bag
MP3
Places of interest
- Eygpt
- Bintan
- Taipei
- Koh Samui
- Langkawi
tagboard
getting to know her surroundings
running in reverse
- Tuesday, August 12, 2008 -
its the 2nd official day of sch. made more new friends =) my class size has increased by 1 more guy. he looks like a soloist. he doesn't talk and response. bet on it that he is a foreigner. i sort of got my own clique already. but shall see how it goes. it might change. tmr they are bringing me to the clementi mac at some tea garden. its a different concept of mac. i've passed by it. its the mac that tv prog always feature. as class end early, it gives me time to think n think again.. here goes..
i think i am getting more bored without talking to him at all. this blog seems like a place for me to talk to him. y is everyone seems to be having r/s prob? esp people around me. talked to joyce once again hopefully she could provide some suggestion. but her solution if she were in my shoes will be to break.
but i am not thinking about that. i've been thinking every night, finally ytd. i managed to sleep without tearing a single bits. it shows that music therapy helps.
on the bus today i thought of msg-ing him a few times. different msg i have typed. but none seems to be meaningful to send out. but there's something that i wanna tell him .
i'm sorry.
my mum told me that girl's always like to think that they can change the guy they love, and i think i have made this mistake. i thought about our past, from last time, you have never been a person who starts to msg me or ask me out and your speech has always been little. however, as we progress. i expect more of communication from you. i know you don't like to speak alot, hence i had never mind the fact that i will have to take more iniaitve than u. however, things have changed. you changed, your communication is getting lesser than b4. and i tried to hard to squeeze out more talks with you. i thought it would balance out. but its not the case. because your talking lesser and interacting with me lesser, while i have to do more of it, i get cranky. i am sorry too because i caused u to suffer again, but i am really not thinking too much.
now that you expect me to get used to it and tells me that communication will be lesser because you r tired. how m i suppose to accept it? would that still be a relationship? u asked me to enlight u, how am i suppose to do that when all ure excuses for all the change is going to be tired and tired and worst you thought that i wanted u to break up. i don't know how your mind works. i feel super insecure w this relation. every week, i have to think oh.. will i be meeting you on fri or sat. will u be coming to find me. will u be msg-ing me telling me where we r going or what time u r coming. but all this doesnt' appear in my love story. i am not sure if i am expecting too much. i don't want to carry on waiting for nothing to happen, i don't want to be alone, i don't want to be telling my daily things to this blog. but i know , you don't want to do anything because u r tired.
is it so hard for u to just maintain your attention level when u were in tekong? is office job more tired than ure training when u were in tekong? if yes, i think i am a lousy gf. i feel more happier when u were in tekong. at least i don't feel that u r taking me from granted. n each time we meet, we both are anticipating each other faces. its a fact that things changed. i don't understand why can't u flex ure fingers to type a sms or y can't u call me back when i had several missed call for u.
where are all the hugs ,kisses and surprise that we had shared.
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